holding my breath, my whole body shakes.
still trying to break all of your chains.
but even oceans can't undo your grip —
will i ever be...
free from you?
all this time, you’ve watched me
bleed through the curtains you drew above.
a marionette with tangled threads of trepidation.
i’ve always danced for you —
but this time,
i think i want to steer clear.
can’t get a hold of my thoughts,
but at least i’m moving ,
chasing some kind of sun.
and i’m afraid it’ll ache when i’m finally gone.
not because i loved you,
but because you were my only dawn.
walking away, but i’m so still inside.
the silence that follows won’t let me hide.
and while you can’t see the chains,
i still feel the bruises.
so if i’m really free from you ,
why am i still feeling blue?